Relaxing at the beach

The Kid buried in the sand... did not like it a bit.

The guys... enjoying the beach.

Difficult Times

We are going through a difficult face in our marriage. It seems that the economy does play a major role. Even as I try not to let myself get burried in the worryness and the stress that all of this comes with, it does affect our mood, our stress level, our patience, our intellegence, and the perspective we have for each other.
These are difficult times, I truly hope we can overcome them and get our lives back together, but as the situation continues, it seems that all of our goals, immediate and in the long run are totally different.
Sometimes I think I may be crazy or maybe i'm asking too much, but then I realize that my husband is a very difficult, stuburn and close minded man... or maybe is me.
Right now, I have to get out and be the bread winner, since husband's doors are closing everywhere, since he is not legally able to work yet (and we need four thousand dollars to get his papers straight with the immigration attorney) and second, he is in the electrical/construction business... and in south florida, that business is very slow.
So I've been going out to give out resumes... for some reason this gets me very sentimental, everytime I walk out of an office, I cry.
I have a bachelors in psychology... I tried to get certified in behavior analysis 3 years ago, but failed the test, then got pregnant and decided to stay with the kid. I worked for a year in a school as a co-teacher and seriously considered to get certification to be a teacher... that's in the process. In the meantime, I am a person with a degree but zero experience, so my doors are closing too.
Unless I go back to Administrative assistant (which I worked as i was doing school) but then I think I should be doing something related to my field... the thing is that there is a rent & bills to pay; there is also a lot of stress, fights, tears, and only $10 hourly jobs available.
I told husband my mother offered for us to come and stay at the house for a good 4 to 6 months until we get our lives back together... to save up the money for his attorney, and save up money to get back on our feet... but his response was an absolutely NO. Instead, I should go out and provide for our family the way he has done it for 5 years, at least until he is able to get back on track.
I have no problem on doing that, as long as I can find something quick and good... as long as he can take the time and learn good english... also finish his high schoold diploma and do some technical electrical schooling, so that when he does get his papers straight, he'll have some better chances in life. But he is all about watching tv. The role as a stay home father is phenomenal... I have come back to the house and is impecable clean, delicious meals prepared, very well care children, but then I talk about making sacrifices so that we can be better off tomorrow, and always end up arguing.
"Lord, give me the strength to change what I can, give me the strength to resist what I cannot change and give me the wisdom to understand the difference between the two. "